Hello! Another week, another series of semi-coherent thoughts from Amelia! I wanted to take a few minutes to talk about an issue so many of us crossdressers have, at some time or another dealt with, a restriction in when and where we can dress. I'll preface this with a bit of backstory...
Prior to coming out to my wife, Amelia (or as she was known at the time, Savannah), was restricted to the house, and only during times when no one else was home. I'm sure this is about as far as many ever hope to get, whether by choice or circumstances, but it definitely isn't the most ideal for everyone. Fast forward to after the big reveal, and Amelia was allowed to wander the house freely, and soon even made her way out into the world. It was exhilarating, to finally be free to express this side of myself, and have her be seen in the world as a real person living life...very freeing. But...the clouds of change and uncertainty are looming on the horizon.
My career (I'm in the military if you didn't know) dictates that I move every few years to a new place, with new dynamics, living situations, job schedules, etc. Difficult enough on it's own, but trying to add in "girl time" on top provides a whole new set of challenges. Depending on where you go, whether you have a family, and which branch you serve in, you have a variety of housing options that may or may not be available to you. You might find yourself living "on the economy" as in renting a house or apartment, or perhaps living in military family housing on or near a base. Or you might be unlucky enough to be living on a ship or in barracks with little to no privacy!
For me, things look to be trending towards the 2nd option. The area I'm moving to does not give me the warm and fuzzies when it comes to safety, especially if I'm going to be leaving my wife alone for weeks while I'm off deployed somewhere for my job, so family housing on base is my best option unless I want a 2 hour commute every day. There are also great benefits available on base in terms of gyms, military exchanges and commissary, and being in a close knit community where everyone understands the military lifestyle and experience. "Ok so what's the catch?"
The catch is my freedom of movement outside the home. Not so much an issue for me in male mode, I can come and go as I please, access all the amenities, etc. Amelia on the other hand will have a hard time getting through the gates with an ID that does not in anyway resemble her in appearance. And I can't very well just offer up an honest excuse and not expect word to spread like wildfire across the entire facility, back to my command, and potentially create a lot of heartache for me in my day to day work. So where does that leave me with options?
Well, there are a few I've been gaming out in my mind. First, I simply "smuggle" all my Amelia apparel, wig, makeup, etc in and out, and find somewhere beyond the gates to "transform" ala superwoman in a phone booth. Or, I could opt as some of my crossdressing sisters have, and restrict my out and about time to a select few weekend trips away to hotels. And least ideally of all, Amelia could be put back on "house arrest", confined once again to the limits of our home.
Each of these are valid options, with advantages and disadvantages to them. Ultimately, it might end up being a case of using all 3 interchangeably depending on time and resources. But, regardless, it reminds me that while I've had it good for a while, and will probably find a way to still experience some level of freedom in the future, there are many out there who never get the chance. To those who do, enjoy it! And to those who do not, if you have the desire, don't give up on trying to find a way, it really is worth the trouble!
With love and hope...
Amelia
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